always deliberating something.

me, i try not to let my thoughts get ahold of me. i tend to capture my thoughts lock them up, x throw away the key. but im learning to let go.. be myself ya dig? i mean im very peculiar, i mean i watch the discovery channel or tlc for fun. i do alot of extraordinary shit and im only 17 years old but im a very intelligent young lady. x like, im always coming the hardest, but its always someone there to hate or bring you down. ALWAYS. im constantly finding unknown things about me. i recently found out im very materialistic x i should not have to act this way. i do want to rearrange some things about my life, but i have to personally take on this task when i am ready to. no one can make you change, no matter how much they pressure you. i am the hardest critic, when it comes to my designs, or an issue that i really desire and want to accomplish. i drew this dress and thought it was the ugliest thing ever. a certain amount of people liked it, but idk, i just wasn't as interested in it as i should've been. another matter is, i always feel like i need someone's reassurance when i'm about to start something [like when i started this blog]. I mean its not that i didn't know if i could do it or not, it was the fact of me promoting it well or getting these people to read it. i know there are alot of people out there who hates my blog and thought it would be very unsuccessful. i have to say, i've been having it for almost 3 months and i am happy of what it has become and i will constantly post things for my readers...and my haters.

[oh and i had "Rich off Cocaine" on repeat. I really love that song.]

-don.